a want and a need

i cannot be that which you need and the thing that you want at the same time. life is not so simple in that way (and why would we ever want it to be, if it is not designed to be? all we truly want is to return home. And that is so much more simple.)

Life is simple in a truer way… it bears its bones and wears itself. it will always eventually feed you with what you need, no matter how much you resist. Only in facing this will you find any real sense of attainment. Might as well do it courageously, rather than backed into a corner. However, if you want to play the victim, life will conspire to provide you the lessons from that lens. That’s how much it loves you. It’ll always assist you in your vision of yourself. As long as it leads you home. Make it pleasant for yourself. Simplify. Surrender. Make it a choice

i cannot be that which you need and want at the same time. if i might spoil the ending for you, no one and nothing can ever be, no matter how far you stray to find such an impossibility. as a fractal of the all, I am as well not designed to be. I’ll not divert my precious will on performing the contrary, abandoning my very nature. but i can be what you need, and what you never thought you wanted. that is closer to the Truth